Day 16 of Crazy

Plans for swimming were canceled as soon as I saw the angry thunder-clouds rolling in.
Worked more on my new projects: rose jewelry. Very cute stuff. Necklace charms and earrings made out of polymer clay.
Cleaned a bit, yet got really lazy after Dad called and said that he wouldn't be stopping by with my new bed until next week.
Let a friend online vent a bit and cheered with another as he had great news about his girlfriend coming home to visit (she's on east coast and he's on west coast.)
Extremely impatient to see tomorrow's Tudors episode.
Yesterday was very nice: spent time with my best friend, who has been unfortunately absent recently.
Not looking forward to work tomorrow: it means my vacation is officially over.
Where does the time go?

Day 15 of Crazy

Day 12, 13 and 14 of Crazy

Day 10 and 11 of Crazy

Yesterday was pretty tough.
After repotting plants to distract me and get me to go to sleep, I cried for nearly three hours straight. My eyes did not thank me for that.

Everything that had been bothering me fell against the dam that holds back the tears and everything rushed out.

Kept the sunglasses on for most of Sunday to avoid questions.

I tried to rush through today as much as possible; vacation starts tomorrow and I wanted to get out of work as so as I woke up this morning.

Going to schedule an appointment with the graduate counselor for languages and see about getting an assistantship as I can no longer receive Pell Grant.

I can still feel the tears waiting to fall. But I've been distracting myself enough to keep them at bay.

Day 9 of Crazy

I'm excited about my new indoor plants. Had to get rocks for good drainage.

Talked a friend through a possible crap-storm. And it worked out for him.

Repotted my new indoor plants and planted the coriander seeds. Should see something in about a week.

Had some pretty crappy thoughts before going to bed: that I'm lonely, that there's something (medical and mental) wrong with me and that I deserve it... for who knows why.

In fact, crying kept me up to nearly 1 a.m., which was when I repotted the plants and cleaned a little.

Sure, I like some along time as much as the next person...... but there's a point where it stops being voluntary and starts hurting a lot.
Where someone canceling plans completely crushes you because it was the only decent human interaction were going to get in a while.... and in a long time coming.

Day 8 of Crazy

Got some groceries and new plants!
Tried out a new game. (second best part of the day)
Found out that I might have some sort of infection.
Went swimming. (best part of the day)
Talked/Cried with Mum on phone. (it's good to get some stuff out)
Started a mini marathon of Scrubs season 8 to be continued.....
Talked with a friend about our general craziness.

All in all a good day.

Day 7 of Crazy

A whole lot of nothing went on today.... and I'm okay with that.
Made a grocery list, made a list of what bills need to be paid.

Decided to bring the sensitive plants inside and plant the cilantro in its place outside. Need more Miracle Gro for it.

Read more about and decided to get some 'fresh-air' plants. Waiting to get paid to begin all of this.