Happy New Year's Eve

So, I've given much thought to this New Year's resolution business.... and have decided that my resolution is to not have a resolution.
I won't resolve to:

lose weight,
be more witty,
gain some grace and inner poise,
cut down on having inner dialogue then refer to it later even though no one knows what I'm talking about,
be less naïve,
be less pessimistic,
worry less,
spend less,
save more,
be less judgemental,
be less mental,
have less roadrage and cut down on yelling at other drivers, even though they can't hear me

I will try my best to be all that I can be and all that I can ever be: bittersweet Rose.



However....

Things I would like to leave in 2008:
depression,
all those petty fights/arguments,
those hours-long bouts of crying,
crap pay,
my illnesses



Things I would like to see myself doing in 2009:
I am moving to an area I enjoy,
I am making more money,
getting well/healthy,
enjoying great (and not-so-great) movies,
being able to hold a basic conversation in French and Spanish

Malaise

Sorry for the very poor lack of updates. I have no real excuse: lack of motivation mostly; I've been working/thinking up other projects.
That, and lazing about.

So, my endocrinologist appointment draws ever near and my feelings are somewhere between excitement, joy, nervous and fear.
Excitement - maybe I'll finally find out what's wrong with me
Joy - maybe I'll finally find out what's wrong with me
Nervous - maybe I'll finally find out what's wrong with me
Fear - maybe I'll finally find out what's wrong with me

There's two sides to this coin: they'll find out what's wrong and fix it/they'll find out what's wrong and can't fix it.

I'd also like a drop off in the amount of pills I have to take everyday.


My general malaise mostly comes from money..... or the lack there of.
I'm only living in slight comfort because anything that isn't a bill, is being paid with a credit card that's slowly getting maxed out. My eBay and Etsy sales are near non-existent. And my creativity had dropped of dramatically.

:/
But I'm alive, and that's the best I can ask for.

More nostalgia

I've got to say, I'm a bit nostalgic today.
Today is Fall Commencement at the university. And while it's not exactly a year from when I graduated, (that would be Sunday) I'm still get nostalgic feelings.
So, I thought the picture from my graduation would be appropriate.

Some news

Those that follow my Twitter are probably wondering what fantastic thing happened that I couldn't wait to share.
Well, I wanted it to be a surprise, but since there are delays, I'll go ahead and tell part of it.

I've embarked on a trip into the land of podcasts. Soon, I'll have pod-posts in addition to blog posts.

I've casted about the fantastic thing and soon you'll know too.

Also, an apology for recent lack of posts, current events have left me shunning most forms of writing. Ridiculous, I know.
Soon, things will be in working order.